
I haven't worked on a challenging project in quite some time so I had forgotten what a horrible thing it is to get fed up and want to throw it. I suddenly got the pressing urge to knit lace a couple of weeks ago and this would be a new endeavor for me. After actually taking time to look through many patterns and books, I decided on something I thought would be good for a beginner lace project. I excitedly bought some mohair yarn at the LYS and finally was able to begin my lace. I started by practicing with some Sugar'N Cream yarn because I didn't want to end up inadvertently knotting up and destroying the mohair. Well, I learned the provisional cast on and falsely thought "okay I got passed that, now I'm good". I started hitting a few bumps in the road, but undeterred ripped out the rows and kept pressing on with new knowledge that I thought solved the problem. 3 or 4 more rip outs and studying the pattern, I decided to switch to my plan B project that I understood much better and was familiar with the stitches. Well, needless to say, that wasn't going quite like I had hoped either. 10 rip outs, Internet searches, book vocabulary and abbreviation look ups, and much confusion later, I just wanted to throw the blasted thing down and stomp on it along with all of the "helpful" books and tips I had gone through. It was a terrible place to be in! If I hate knitting, where does that leave me?!??!?!! How awful!!!! It brought back all the memories of early knitting and rip outs and confusion and frustration thinking I understood for sure and finding out I didn't at all by the looks of the project! It made me so grateful that I still stuck it out through all exasperation and mistakes in those early projects or where would I be today?! What if I had given up?! Perish the thought! :) Anyway, back to the lace, I finally relented and realized I couldn't do this on my own and asked for some help from a fellow Raveler. A few words from her and the problem was solved!!!!!!! I was dancing around the house! I think my husband was a bit miffed not realizing the deep turmoil I had been in for 5 days! And now everything was happy again! Turns out I was putting my left needle in back when I should've been putting it in front during the silly little SSK. That was the cause of all my heartache! Ironically, I have done SSK that way all the time in other projects and somehow up until now it has worked out fine. I am happy to say that I am on my way to a pretty little mohair lace scarf. By the way, I also learned that stitch markers and a lifeline are lifesavers and I am greatly indebted to them and the Ravelers who suggested them as well!
In conclusion, the moral of my story, is that I am so grateful that I stuck it out through the stumbling blocks and aggravations of learning something new. I hope that I will keep that in mind the next time I want to give up. Knit on fellow stitchers! Knit on!